Drazil....Thank you for making me cry today...really...thank you! I needed someone to pull the plug and let me cry. I lost my mom to cancer in 1994, 1 week before she would have been 44. Yes she was young, way too young to die. This week has been hard, today my sisters and I cleaned out her antique china cabinet so my brother could put his GF's china in it. Don't even get me started on the anger I feel about him putting his GF's china in my mom's antique cabinet...did I mention that he's only known her a few months and just shacked up with her last weekend? And the whole ordeal of splitting all the china between the sisters and the crying and selfishness really got to me. Mom would not want us to be like that! I really have to let it go...the china cabinet and the china is not my mom and she is not there and I have to keep telling myself that. Sometimes I feel my mom with me too, especially when I am sewing. Oh shit, now I'm crying again. I tried to burn off my anger and hurt and resentment on the treadmill for a whole hour. The only way I made it an hour was thinking about your post. I haven't been reading your blog for long but you have made a profound difference in my life already. I can't wait to read more!
Band Groupie...You really went above and beyond anything I was hoping for when I sent you an email asking about your spreadsheet. I am in awe!! I read your email and printed it. From what I read it is awesome and exactly what I need. I am going to try to build mine to match yours this weekend (maybe Monday if I don't get time at the motel). I will let you know how it goes and email you if I get stuck.
Tomorrow after work I am taking my boys to Utah to the Hogle Zoo. I haven't been there since K1 was 2, which was 17 years ago. We are so excited!! We are leaving as soon as I get off work. One of my best friends and her 4 kids are going with us too. We have rooms at the same motel with an outside pool so the kids can go swimming. And the best part...the motel has a bar and we can take drinks to the pool. Oh yea baby!! I really need this weekend away. I am missing my husband like crazy and after today at my brothers I just really to get away.
Oh and yesterday I got my 3rd fill. I now have 3.5 cc in my 14 cc band. This morning I saw a new low on the scale...296.6. I almost had a kitten when I saw that! The scales have forgiven my 4th of July gluttony a lot sooner than I had hoped.
I guess that's all for now. I still need to Map Quest the directions to the motel and get packed. I will try to remember to take some pics while we are in Salt Lake and tell you all about it when we get back.
Have a great weekend everyone!!
Love the diamonds on your lay out. They make me happy! :)
ReplyDeleteAwww you're welcome...but I didn't mean to make you cry. You're right - she isn't the dishes, she's much more than that but it's perfectly okay to be upset about those dishes. Who wouldn't be? I'm glad you have a place to write about it and hopefully some day you can write a post about who your mother was so we can all get to know her. You can do this...hang in there.
ReplyDeleteHave fun at Hogle Zoo. I live here and haven't been there in a while.
ReplyDeleteAm really loving the look of your blog. And congrats on the weight loss.
Amey, you and I were crying together, LOL! It was a cathartic cry though.
ReplyDeleteHave fun at the Zoo and enjoy your weekend.
I am sorry about your mom and this recent issue of having to split her china and move her things out of her cabinet.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this piece of you with us. I know your mom is proud of you, seriously. You are taking your life back and kicking major butt in the process! :)